(中+English)為夢想拼上最後那塊拼圖

我是一名準備就讀政治大學研究所的學生，這篇故事獻給過去奮鬥九個月的自己，內容關於夢想，如何一步步實現

英文口說，一直是我的惡夢。小時候被老師派去參加英文演講比賽，背的很辛勞結果在台上大忘詞，緊張的甚麼話都說不出，不像中文演講至少是母語還可以現場即興，我只能在台上跟評審乾瞪眼直到時間到被趕下台，從此對講英文蒙上一層陰影，唯恐避之而不及。

在高中時，我想要讓英文口說變強，參加了模擬聯合國社，強迫自己參加會議討論，其中全場英文對話，本來以為這樣的環境可以讓我變得口說流利，沒想到反而使我更不敢開口，因為身旁的同學們用英文對談的流暢度就彷彿英文是母語一樣，縱使有話想表達的我就只默默退到旁邊聆聽，對於英文口說，我又更退縮了。

在大學時，我又嘗試了新的方法練習英文：去英語補習班工讀，本來設想可有個沉浸式的學習環境，然而事與願違，沒有機會訓練到日常口說，僅有與小朋友的簡單會話而已。

就在升上大四，我堅定了想要考研究所的志向，政治大學是我從高中到大學一直很嚮往的學校，我將大量時間投入在準備專業科目上，花了八個月的時間準備筆試科目，很幸運的我的筆試關通過了，隨之迎來的是複試關，而在那時我才發現複試關其中有英文面試的關卡！
這彷彿是上天給我強烈的一擊，越是抗拒的事情越會成為一道高牆阻擋自己去路。

不停埋怨自己以前沒有把英文口說練好而非常懊惱，認為這八個月沒日沒夜的讀書就因為我的英文口說不好而讓我的考研付之一炬時，我的朋友跟我分享了amazing talker，他說可以去試試看，我遇到了Teacher Charity，沒想到，讓我的英文口說起死回生。

我的英文口說最大的問題便是出在沒有自信，不敢表達，但在跟Teacher Charity練習時老師很友善且溫柔的引導我去說出我想說的話，也會大力給予鼓勵，讓我慢慢建立信心，而我也在跟老師上課過程中發現是之前訓練方法不對，
「之前的我太嘗試越級打怪了，在自己不拿手的地方需要一步步增進，而不是在高手雲集的地方自己就能成為高手。」

每堂課都有非常紮實的訓練，從自我介紹一開始我完全不知道如何準備，在老師的逐步引導從撰寫、反覆練習一直到念的行雲流水，加上模擬面試，大量的模擬面試官會出的題目並加以訓練，每次上完50分鐘都讓我腦細胞死了一半，因為每次都加強了很多不足處，而每次上完課都很有收穫，想讓我更積極準備練習題目，也讓我深有感受：我的英文面試有在進步！

就在面試當天我帶著老師的教誨以及祝福進入面試教室，令我震驚且興奮的是：面試官問的所有題目在先前都有和Teacher Charity 練習過！每個問題的回答都在腦袋裡，讓我能很有自信的回答。

最後成績出來了，拿到了87分，不算太高，但是透過這次跟老師學習讓我翻轉英文口說的畏懼，而我也順利的備到政治大學，現在，就等著去夢想的學校讀書了~
我的英文口說還是很需要加強，但我不會再害怕，因為我找到適合我的方法去學習了，
在此衷心感謝Teacher Charity，是老師為我拼上最後那塊夢想的拼圖。

English version

Speaking in English has always been my nightmare. When I was a child, I was sent by my teacher to participate in an English speech competition. I was very hard at memorizing but I forgot the words on the stage. The judges stared blankly until the time was up and I was ousted from the stage. From then on, it cast a shadow over the English-speaking, and they were afraid to avoid it.

When I was in high school, I wanted to improve my English speaking. I participated in the Model United Nations club and forced myself to participate in conferences. During the whole English conversation, I thought that such an environment would make me speak fluently. on the contrary, I was even more afraid to speak, the students around me spoke English as fluently as if English was their mother tongue. Even if there was something I wanted to express, I just silently retreated to the side and listened. When it came to speaking in English, I retreated even more.

When I was in college, I tried a new method to practice English: I went to an English cram school for work and study. I originally imagined that I would have an immersive learning environment, but it turned out to be the opposite.There is no opportunity to practice oral speaking, only simple conversations with children.

When I was in my senior year in university, I made up my mind that I wanted to go to graduate school. Cheng Cheng University is the school I have always yearned for from high school to university. I devoted a lot of time to prepare for professional subjects, which took eight months. I was preparing for the written test subjects. Fortunately, I passed the written test, and then came the re-examination level, and then I found out that the re-examination level included an English interview !
This seems to be a strong blow from God, and the more I resist, the more it will become a high wall blocking my way.

I kept complaining that I didn’t practice English speaking well before and was very annoyed. When I thought that my studying day and night for the past eight months had ruined my postgraduate entrance examination because of my poor English speaking, my friend shared amazing talker to me, she said I can try it out. I met Teacher Charity, and teacher suprisingly salvaged my English speaking.

The biggest problem with my English speaking is that I don't have the confidence to express myself, but when I practiced with Teacher Charity, the teacher was very kind and gentle and guided me to say what I wanted to say. I slowly built up my confidence, and I also found out that the previous training method I tried was wrong.
"Before, I tried to leapfrog monsters too much. I need to improve step by step where I am not good at it, rather than becoming a master myself in a place where masters gather."

Every class has very solid training. From the beginning of my self-introduction, I didn’t know how to prepare at all. With the teacher’s step-by-step guidance, from writing, and repeated practice, to reading, and with mock interviews.Every time I finish 50 minutes, half of my brain cells die, because every time I strengthen a lot of deficiencies, and every time I finish the class, it is very rewarding. I want to be more active in preparing for the practice questions.It also made me feel deeply that my English interview is improving!

On the day of the interview, I entered the interview classroom with the teacher's teachings and blessings. I was shocked and excited that all the questions asked by the interviewer had been practiced with Teacher Charity before! The answer to each question is in my head, allowing me to answer with confidence.

The final grade came out, and I got 87 points, which is not too high, but through this study with the teacher, I had no fear of English speaking, and I also successfully enrolled by the National Chengchi University. Now, I am waiting to study at the dreaming school.
My English speaking still needs to be improved, but I will not be afraid anymore, because I have found a suitable way to learn, I would like to express my heartfelt thanks to Teacher Charity, who helped me put the last piece of the dream puzzle.